Being an armor bearer

So i have been searching and searching...and now i know. No, i still don't know exactly what i am going to do with my life, but i know I want to be an "armor bearer" for the rest of my life. I want to encourage someone else who is serving the Lord. I don't know if i am going to get married, or just encourage my pastor and those around me. This comes from the passage in I Samuel 14 where Jonathan and his armor bearer went to battle with the Philistines. The armor bearer was a great encourager to Jonathan. He told him to do what was in his heart and that he would follow him according to his heart. I want to be the person that goes behind and helps someone to better serve the Lord. That doesn't mean i won't do anything for the Lord with my life. Just because the armorbearer was following Jonathan doesn't mean he wasn't in the battle. He was still fighting, working, and striving. This is what i want to do. I don't have to struggle through life thinking there is nothing for me to do. There is always someone out there to encourage. So know this, serve the Lord with your life and all you have to do is ask me to help you, and i will be right there to back you up. None of this was really my own thoughts....today was a great chapel.

We're friends for a reason

Well, im back at school and counting down the days. Still waiting for a yearbook, but that is another ranting for another day. i am also not going to complain about shirt sleeves, although its true that all of our sleeves in the super cute picture to the left of this paragraph are now considered unacceptable. Nor am i going to express my irritation with the fact that we have to be out of our dorm this week 45 min before there is anything to do (which would be great if i had a boyfriend to talk to the whole time...but o well :-p).





Today i am thankful for the things God has given me here. This post has come about because today in chapel (which had to have the most announcements ever recorded in a college chapel), Dr. Sexton had us tell the person next to us the one thing we loved about Crown the most. I grabbed Amber's arm and told her that the thing i am most thankful for here are my friends. They make this place bearable. Although being friends with two Ambers can make life a little more confusing sometimes, i wouldn't trade 'em for the world. I can't say i've ever had friends quite like them, but then i don't think there are many ppl like them in the world...i mean if there were two heathers, they might blow up the world. :-p Even if God just brought me here to meet them...it would be worth it...but you guys better not break, i paid a lot of money for you, and i don't think there is a return policy. I'm really blessed that i have more than one best friend!!


Amber: You are going to make the best nurse ever!! I know you are going to do awesome next year at IPFW, but maybe i can stop by on my way to maranatha.


Lauren: no matter what you decide you are going to excell...but you better come home to visit, and if you ever get a pet dolphin i want to meet it.


Amber: You are one of the most musical ppl i know, and you are going to do great! And you'll be an awesome piano teacher...if your students hang on for more than one lesson.



Heather: If you don't blow up this world, you are going to be the coolest science teacher ever, but i don't recommend pig stomachs for middle school age...


Keep in touch next year!!

Thanks

Thank you all for praying. my aunt passed away yesterday afternoon, but sadly, we don't think she got saved. She had let my dad leave a tract with her, so hopefully she was able to read it and get saved. With God all things are possible. Now please pray for safety for Charles and i, we will be leaving after classes today to go home for the funeral.

Sometimes we do stupid things

Have you ever done something that looked really fun, so you did it, and then later you realized it was really stupid, but you would probably do it again it a heartbeat, given the right precautions. Well, i did something along those lines last night. Nothing really astounding or breath taking although afterwards i did feel like i might hurl. Here's what happened, Heather and i had to go park her truck in the pit (the really retarded parking lot that our dorm is forced to park in although we are much closer to the back lot and there are other dorms closer to the pit). I was in a pretty weird mood, not really a good mood, but not necessarily a bad mood either, and Heather and I decided it would be fun to roll down the hill that we have to hike up to get out of the pit because they have not installed the stairs that common sense sees as necessary. So we got to the top of the hill, and then rolled back down. We did it once or twice and got some other girls to do it. I guess the whole campus was just in a weird mood. This idea probably wouldn't have been such an unintelligent decision if it wasn't for the fact that i am allergic to grass. Right now i am sitting here trying not to move my elbows because they broke out from the grass. So pretty much, I'm sitting here feeling like an idiot, and i thought i would share it with you.

***Yesterday, my mom called me and told me that my aunt is getting worse fast. They exected her to die last night or this morning. I haven't gotten a call yet this morning, so i am assuming that means she lived through the night. Please pray she gets saved before she dies. Also, please pray for Charles and i as we will probably be driving home for the funeral.

Utter Amazement at the goodness of God

This weekend is Spring Break. For me, just those words stir up pictures of home, family, friends, and those who are closest to me. One thing hit me differently this time when i returned home. I guess like every other person who leaves home, I didn't really think the big things would ever change. I mean i expected more faces at church, and new buildings would spring up around my community, but never anything big. This time i was hit in the face with change, and i was hit hard. It was a strange impact, not something that hurt too much, just a sudden and forceful jab. I guess the main changes that struck me were those at church. I walked into sunday school this morning to the same great class i have for the past three years of visits home and summer vacation. It was different, people i didn't recognize, people i have known forever are married, and even a new person teaching. I walked over to church after (our sunday school is in another building than our church), and the whole auditorium was packed out. The auditorium even had a few changes, including extra chairs on the platform to contain the massive choir that continues to grow, and a projector thing (which my pastor informed me was a four thousand dollar projector thing) hanging from the ceiling. The choir made their way to the platform, and there weren't enough chairs for us. Service started and our new staff made announcements and led music. There were so many new faces, i didn't know which were first time visitors and which were now regular attenders. I just couldn't stop thinking of the goodness of God that i saw has been working since i have been gone. God is allowing my church to grow, and i am so excited to see where it is going.

Another update on my aunt...she was admitted to the hospital on Friday because some of her levels were low, and while she was there, she started to have trouble breathing. The doctors think her lungs have partially collapsed. This put off the kidney removal pretty much indefinitely. Her only chance now is prayer. Please pray!!! Please pray for her spiritually. She isn't open right now to having anyone come and talk to her. Pray that God will soften her heart.

Quick Update

Spring break is around the corner...really, we leave tomorrow, and then after a ten hour car trip (eight and a half if the spedometer's broken lol) i will be home!!! I can't wait to get out of the car, go to my church, and see all my friends from home...except of course for the ones at college...kate and ashley :'( I might even get to see heidi on Friday, if i can convince ppl they want to go with me at 2am...

Well, a quick update on my aunt. My dad called me last night and told me that they think the cancer has moved to her brain. They are planning to remove her kidney in a week or two, and they are hoping that will slow the growth of the cancer, but they told her there isn't really treatment for kidney cancer. Please pray for her salvation!! It is on the top of my prayer list, and i hope you would add it to yours. My dad is taking it hard, but doing well. Pray for him as well.

Please pray

Well, I know i just posted 2 days ago, and most likely no one read it, but i have a need to post again. This time it is to ask all my friends to pray. I guess i could tell the 3 of you that read this sometime, but i am hoping that by getting this out in on the web, more people can pray. I found out today that my aunt has cancer. It started in her kidney and spread to her liver, spine, lymph nodes, and lungs. I don't know very much about her chances, but with God all things are possible. More importantly than her health is her spiritual condition. To my knowledge, she isn't saved. I am praying that this will give my family a chance to witness to her. Also please pray for the rest of my dad's family, none of them are saved, and i am praying that we will be able to witness to them. They have had a rough time with cancer in the family. My grandma died of cancer, my aunt (by marriage) also died of cancer, my dad had cancer, and now my aunt.

Thanks for praying!