In whatsoever state I am...

So, lately (as in the pas 2 days) i have been praying about some things that really don't matter too much in the scope of eternity, but they have been weighing rather heavily on my heart and mind. It is kind of nice to have something to think about while im at work since it passes the time more quickly, the almost ten hours yesterday just flew by, but i just want this taken care of. Unfortunately, i'm not writing to say that God has tied all the ends of all the little strings together in a magnicient looking package. This morning i read the book of Philippians (lately in my devos, i have been reading an entire epistle just to get the overview of the book). The thing that really jumped out at me was the necessity of the Christian to be content. Christ was humbled to be obedient to death, but he never grumbled or complained. In chapter 4, Paul tells the philippian church that he has learned to be content not matter what state he was in. Contentment isn't an easy state to reach, but when you do, it's amazing... That's what i need to pray for...contentment, and then everything else will work out...

On a side note, looking at the verse sometimes makes me think about being content in any state, whether going to school in TN, living in PA, visiting friends in OH, or transferring to WI. God with with me wherever i go...

Stirred or changed?

Yesterday i got a phone call telling me that there had been an accident. Three of the guys from school had been travelling for New Testament Church Pioneers. Their SUV had rolled over and pinned one of them under the car. He died before the rescue crews could free him. Lee Waller was one of the godliest Christians i had ever met. I went on visitation with him for a few months my sophomore year, and he had a vision for souls. I've had very little to do since i heard the news, and i have been thinking a lot (which i know i do far too much sometimes). I thought about what this would be like if one of my friends had been taken to eternity. How would our relationship end? Would they know that i love them? Would i be able to live knowing our relationship was right? Would there be a senseless grudge between us? Then i started thinking what would happen if it had been me? Lee was serving the Lord. He was encouraging pastors and church members. What am I doing for the Lord? I am praying that Lee didn't die in vain. I am praying that Lee's Christian example will not just stir people but change them. Please pray for the Waller family, his girlfriend Jessica, the Peoples Baptist Church, Crown College, and Pastor Sexton. Also please pray for Scott Davis and Zach Gillit as they were travelling with Lee and are dealing with this loss and the tramua of the accident.

Eventful days

Well, since i last wrote, a lot as happened. I turned 21, which was a lot better than turning 20 (at least my family remembered this time...but i didn't get to go out...jk), our house got broken into (my brother's laptop and all his software got stolen), i was in a wedding, i saw pirates 3 (which i considered a horrible waste of time and money), i started my job (i hate it), i started teaching 4-6th grade at my church (i love it), and prolly a list of ten things i am forgetting to mention. I prolly would have written earlier, except our internet was down for 2 weeks. I miss everyone like crazy, which seems to be a theme of my life this summer. Just thought i would give a quick update.

So...

I just read my last post, and realized i must have been pretty tired when i wrote it. It is all true, my friends are awesome, but I say it all the time, and i'm guessing some of you have read about it a few times.

So my summer so far has been pretty good. I got a job that isn't factory. I'm actually working as a restaurant baker. I go in tomorrow to fill out paper work. I've gotten to hang out with friends for a while. There has only been one upsetting part of the summer, and that is the critical injury of my computer. I shut it the other day and the lid just split. I took it in to Best Buy, only to find out my warranty had expired 6 days before. That was a pretty rough moment, so now, i have to wait till i get start my job, get my first check, send my money to maranatha, and then get my computer fixed...so much for saving up money...catch ya guys later!

How much do we miss?

How you ever thought how much we miss out on because we are afraid to tell others what we think of them? How much do we lose that we never had because we never ask for it in the first place? How many friendships could have really gotten close if you would have taken the risk to tell someone you care about them? Caring about people is a risk. Telling them you care is more of a risk. Caring makes you vulnerable. Telling them you care lets them know you are vulnerable. A friend can hurt you so much more than an enemy...an enemy can hurt your ego, but a friend can hurt your heart. So here i am bearing my heart...you are special to me...all of my friends that read this...you have the ability to hurt my heart, but i'm telling you because i trust you never would purposely hurt me...so amber, lauren, Am, heather, mark, krissy, tom, rachel, addrienne, and anyone else i might forget on this list. I love you guys...

Why do we torture ourselves?

Why do single girls torture themselves by listening to sappy love songs, watching sappy chick flicks, and reading romance novels. Girls, here's how it goes, the perfect girl (usually perfect on the inside) gets the perfect guy and they live happily ever after...always. Then, the poor single girl that read/watched/listened walks away with a pit in her stomach wishing it could be her. How dumb is that??? It is never like that in real life, usually it is the mediocre girl gets the mediocre guy (who in her eyes IS perfect, which is how it should be), and they live together, having problems now and then. This world isn't making it any easier to be a single girl. Not that i am complaining. I am single ***big suprise*** and i am having fun. I'm not tied down to anyone. I don't have to meet them at a certain time, spend hours of my life "looking special" for that "special someone." I have time to go out with my friends when the phone rings, and sit around doing whatever for hours. When God sends *him* along, i will be excited about it, but until then, i'm having too much fun to spend time being sappy.

Finals are almost over...

So it has been a rather long week. I am sitting at G and S right now and writing this while amber studies for her speech final. That's right it's finals. The time when teachers test to see if you were really learning what they were trying to teach you all semester, but if you ask me, they are checking a little late. I am going home in 5 days. We have to stick around for graduation, which has been slightly annoying in years past, but not so much this year since pretty much everyone i know here is graduating.
It has been an insanely long week, and i am suffering from sleep deprivation. I got about 3 or 4 hours on monday and then worked for 9 hours on tues. (def. not complaining about the extra money on my check.). I decided to trying to get an extra hour or so on tues. night, only to wake up to my phone ringing because somehow, one of my friends has a system where he knows when i'm sleeping and he only calls then. So we talked for about...ummm...2 min. and then i was going back to sleep, but before i could my roommate, who had a little more energy than usual, came in the room and told me that one of our friends had fallen off a horse and broke some ribs and accumulated some fluid around her heart, and she was in the hospital. That woke me up, and i couldn't get back to sleep for about 45 minutes. I called my friend today (they moved her out of ICU, so she has her own room and phone now) and she seems to be doing really good and they might let her go today. She actually has hairline fractures on the vertebrae in her back, and they are hoping they will heal on their own. So she's doing better, and i am exhausted.

4 finals down, 2 to go, and 5 days before i go home!!!