Wednesday, December 27, 2006

God's Promises

So here i am sitting here. I am praying about some stuff...some pretty big stuff. Nothing depressing or anything. I just want to make the right decision because if i don't i will always regret it. Maybe ive posed this question before, but why is it that in the years of our lives that we are most unsure of everything do we have to make the biggest decisions that mold our lives? O well i guess that is when we learn to truly rely on God because no one else can make these decisions for us. I just have to pray about this and talk to some ppl and figure this all out. God assured me He'll be will me through it...Psa 32:8 ~I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: i will guide thee with mine eye~ Isn't it awesome how God gives us those promises right when we need them???

Saturday, December 23, 2006

WIll i let this change my life??

Ok, so i don't normally post on here this frequently anymore, but this morning something happened that i hope and pray will change my life. I was reading my Bible, which i shamefully admit i don't do as i ought, and i read the 15th Psalm. It was one of the most incredible passages i have ever read. It just jumped off the page at me.
1 LORD, who shall abide in thy tabernacle? who shall dwell in thy holy hill? 2 He that walketh uprightly, and worketh righteousness, and speaketh the truth in his heart. 3 He that backbiteth not with his tongue, nor doeth evil to his neighbour, nor taketh up a reproach against his neighbour. 4 In whose eyes a vile person is contemned; but he honoureth them that fear the LORD. He that sweareth to his own hurt, and changeth not. 5 He that putteth not out his money to usury, nor taketh reward against the innocent. He that doeth these things shall never be moved.

This whole passage encompasses what the Christian life should be. These are the essential elements that must be present for someone to be truly living for God. I want to live this psalm out. I want to use this psalm as the criterion for my daily life. I have a friend that i consider special (no im not dating him :-p). i have only gotten to know them in the past few months, but from what i can see his life lines up with these principles. I am so lucky to have him as a friend, and although i know that he will most likely never read this, i want to thank God for allowing me to know him. God is so good to me no matter how many times i fail Him!!

The only thing now is i have to allow this to really change me...i don't know who God will use to keep me accountable on this, but the Lord always provides our needs...o and on that note, my loan got approved today!!

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Irrational Fears

In my life i have three irrational fears. I prolly have more, but i haven't really thought about them enough to develop them. These aren't fears like a loved one dying or ending up alone for the rest of my life, which to me are totally rational fears. My three irrational fears are as follows: throwing up (i haven't done that since i was 8, and the thought of it gives me goosebumps), sparklers (yeah the ones like on the fourth of July. i know that sounds retarded, but those things scare the fire outta me), and finally scary movies. Until last night, i hadn't watched a scary movie since i was 15, and that one was forced at a friend's 16th birthday party. Well, last night i got together with some friends and we watched Darkness Falls. It is a movie about a psycho tooth fairy (i know it sounds lame already). The movie was actually pretty good, just not scary. It was extremely predictable. Not to mention i had a friend that had seen it a hundred times who kept saying, "yeah those policemen are about to get lit up" and "you're gonna go flying out the window and through the air with the tooth fairy." So if i keep seeing "scary" movies like that i guess i don't have to worry about my third fear anymore, but the first two will prolly be with me for awhile.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

It feels so good...

Well, tonight i hit the gym...this is my first time, but it was great. I thought about coming home for break and just walking like i did before, but i wasn't really thinking cause it is FREEZING here, so i talked to my friend rachel (she works at a ladies gym). I was thinking that i might have to pay through the nose, but i knew i had to do something. Rachel was able to get me the greatest deal ever. I can work out for a dollar a session!!! So anyway, tonight was the first time i got to go. It was awesome! I did 2 circuits, walked a half mile, and biked 6 1/2 miles. Working out feels so good!! I have really been slacking lately and i am hoping this will be the motivation i need to get back on the ball.

Anyhoo, tomorrow is my church's Christmas banquet and i am soo excited. I love being home, and anything i can do to get together with my friends is awesome. Last night was the teen Christmas party and my youth director's last wednesday night directing our teen program. The teen activities are held at my church's new building, and they let all the college students go last night. It was awesome. There were so many ppl and my youth group has such a great spirit. It was kinda wierd when trisha, jamie, leah, mary, charles, tom, and i were back in with that group. I was so wierd to think that when the Gustafson's first got there we were all awkward 12 and 13 year olds who had no idea what we were doing with our lives, and now some are getting married, and some are working, and i don't think i ever left that awkward stage, but whatever. Anyhoo, there was a gift exchange and it was pretty funny cause there wasn't really time, so they put all the gifts in the middle, numbered the teens, and then let them pick a gift from the pile. It was great when mike got a super cute purse and brian got some of the nicest hair barrettes i had ever seen. Jenny's tie looked pretty nice too.

I got to visit my pastor today. He had surgery on the 7th, so charles and i hadn't seen him until today. He was still pretty talkative and didn't seem to LOVE staying in his house all the time. He is hoping he can get out and go to church by Wednesday, but i told him not to take it too fast. My youth director is having surgery tomorrow for the same thing, but i am praying his isn't as serious. Well, i am going to go enjoy watching my t.v, for at least the 2 weeks i have left.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Let it snow??

I AM HOME!!! Those words really tell it all. They really mean, i am sitting at home in my jammies watching television. It is just wonderful. I can't wait to go visit everyone i haven't seen in months!!! I am also glad that Crown lets us out so early!!! Most of my friends are still experiencing the joy of finals and i am home!!! (hahahaha) The only problem with coming home is all this blasted snow. I really don't remember it being this cold. Most people are like, "i love snow, it's so pretty." well, i'll take a nice photograph any day. I detest brushing the snow off cars, shovelling, and getting frostbite from stepping outside. Snow is also the only weather that can force you to completely cancel all plans and hole up in your house. At least with other stuff you can just change your plans. The only merit that snow has is that it is the only precipitation that you can throw at people! and make snow forts...and snowmen. However there is a large obstacle to overcome...that is actually getting bundled up and heading outside. By the time you have put on all you layers...including your shirt, sweater, sweatshirt, jacket, and multiple other pieces of clothing, you have to take half of them off cause you haven't put on your boots yet and you can't quite reach your feet. So after to get your boots on and you are all suited up again, you head outside. Except, you slip on the ice and fall over, but you can't get up, because you can't move your arms for all the layers. You start to realize you should have put on another pair of socks cause your toes are going numb...ok, well needless to say, unless i am promised an insane amount of fun with friends, i don't venture out for more than 15 seconds.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

I'll be home for Christmas...Home for the Holidays!!

So...Finals are OVER!!!! That means i am officially a 2nd semester junior, and even better and more important i am going home tomorrow. I love these Christmas songs that make me think of home! I am hoping i get to get my phone back today. On friday, it deactivated and deleted itself. Yep, i couldn't talk on it, and even if i could have, all my contacts are GONE!!! So i have no phone numbers except for the ones i have scraped together over the last few days. So, i guess i'l update when i get i just checked my voicemail (using another phone) and verizon called me to let me know they had my'd they expect me to check it if they have my phone??